urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816 niki1816 niki1816 2005-04-05T04:08:45Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:4836 2005-04-05T04:08:45Z 2005-04-05T04:08:45Z ying yang twins-wait 1.NAME-nicole renae wilson<br />2.AGE-17<br />3.SEX-female<br />4.BIRTHDAY-june 19 1987<br />5.TIME-11:53<br />6.NICKNAMES-niki,poopsie,punkin<br />7.HAIR COLOR-blonde<br />8.EYE COLOR-blue<br />9.HEIGHT-5'2"<br />10.WEIGHT-117<br />11.CURRENT CRUSH-still dave, and this guy named jason<br />12.PETS-two dogs<br />12.FRIENDS-jason,morgan,heather,courtney,jewel,kristen,bobby,andrew,cea,<br />cody,brian,kari,brooke,dave,betty,kevin<br />13.FAVORITE COLOR-green and pink<br />14.HOMETOWN-detroit michigan<br />15.CURRENT RESIDENCE-ellenton florida<br />16.VIRGIN-no<br />17.FAVORITE FAST FOOD-sonic and chik fil a<br />18.FAVORITE NICE RESTAURANT-carrabas,ruby tuesdays,and applebees<br />19.FAVORITE MOVIE-diary of a mad black woman and the notebook<br />20.CURRENT JOB-aeropostale<br />21.FAVORITE DRINK-dr.pepper and gatorade<br />22.FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK-parrot bay and bacardi twisted<br />23.HOBBIES-singing,dancing,shopping,sleeping,hanging out with friends,having sex,talking on the phone,driving,going to the movies<br />24.WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU REGRET-losing certain friends over stupid stuff<br />25.LAST TIME YOU HAD SEX-about a week ago<br />26.HAVE YOU EVER DONE DRUGS-yes<br />27.CURRENT SCHOOL-manatee school for the arts<br />28.ARE YOU BI SEXUAL-yes<br />29.GRADE-12<br />30.EVER BEEN ARRESTED-yes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:4472 2004-06-01T18:09:43Z 2004-06-01T18:09:43Z un-freaking-real! my computer is definately gay...something is wrong with our internet, and it won't let anyone get online...so therfore...i can't finish chemistry! well...my parents just now told me that the clubhouse at our apartments has internet access that is available to people who live here...so today...i walked up to the clubhouse to take my exams...and freaking mr. connell dropped me...and i don't know the number to get ahold of him to let him know what's going on with my computer...so now...i didn't get a freaking credit...i'm gonna go and freaking cry now...talk to you later...I LOVE YOU MEATBALL!...LOVE NIKI!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:4285 2004-05-21T02:27:38Z 2004-05-21T02:27:38Z american idol 1. smile often<br />2. practice patience<br />3. think freely<br />4. make new friends<br />5. rediscover old ones<br />6. savor special moments<br />7. tell those you love that you do<br />8. feel deeply<br />9. forget trouble. hope.<br />10.forgive an enemy. grow<br />11.count your blessings<br />12.observe miracles<br />13.make them happen<br />14.discard worry<br />15.give. give in<br />16.trust enough to take<br />17.pick some daisies<br />18.share them<br />19.hug a child urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:4095 2004-05-12T01:53:53Z 2004-05-12T01:53:53Z gretchen wilson:redneck woman ok...listen to this! my dad and i were talking the other night, and he was telling me how he wants to let me date guys, and hang out, and go out with all my friends...BUT...he said that right now he doesn't feel like he can fully trust me...ummm...and i really hate to admit it...but i can somewhat understand where he's coming from! but...here's the good part...he said that if i can straighten up...then he would be willing to get me a car, and he would pay half of the payment and i would pay the other half...and he would pay my insurance...how freaking cool is that! ok well...i think i smell...so a shower would be a great thing to consider right now! talk to you later...much love...niki urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:3751 2004-05-09T03:29:37Z 2004-05-09T03:29:37Z nothing... thanks chubs...eww...i'm a baby...i was reading this, and i seriously was like about to cry...i'm really sorry for hurting you the way i did, and i know nothing i do will take back the pain that i put you through, but i do hope in some way that you can find it in your big ol' heart to forgive me...i can't say it enough...but i really do love you...and i'm workin on some things...love always...bickle urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:3374 2004-05-07T14:51:25Z 2004-05-07T14:54:47Z mrs. hafer's annoying voice Yeppers...i got a new buddy in my life! Her name is kelley, and she is seriously awesome! She's kinda like another amanda in some ways...like in the way she acts, and the way she doesn't care what people think of her...it's cool! And another good thing is...my parents seem to like her too...which is always a big fat plus, because they let me do dtuff with her! Of coarse they don't like her as much as amanda, but i don't think i will ever have another friend that they like as much as amanda...but yeah...i defiantely screwed that one up!!! Alright well...i'm gonna go...i'll write more later! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:3303 2004-05-05T23:58:33Z 2004-05-05T23:58:33Z rascal flatts ughh...how do i start with this fragile subject??? well...he was one of my managers, he's 21, he's hott, he's sweet, and he likes me too! sounds great, huh? well, that's where you're wrong...ok, here's what my parents don't like about him...he's 21, he's hott, and he likes me, the cool thing is, is that my mom and him talk on a pretty regular basis, and my mom really likes him, and thinks that he seems like a good guy, she said that it's just the age difference...well...normally i really wouldn't care at all about what my parents think, but i think i really like him, and i really don't wanna screw this up...another thing is...he is really concerned about what my parents think, and i guess that's good in some ways, but sometimes it kinda drives me nuts...because if my parents were ok with him and i dating, i'm almost sure that he would date me, and that would be freaking awesome, but he would rather me wait until i'm 18 to do anything like that, which i think i can handle...i mean...it's not THAT far away...i'll be 17 in about a month, then 18 is only one year after that...and i'm sure it will go by fast...all my friends that are about to turn 18 say that their 17th year went by really fast...so...i think i can do it...i guess that year will somewhat determine if we really like eachother. the good thing is...is that he still wants to hang out with me, and be good friends for now, and all that good stuff...it just sucks in another way becuase, when i get jealous of another girl (which i do...MISSY!)...i don't really feel like i can say too much about it, because i'm not his girlfriend, and i don't want him to think that i'm a bitch or anything...so yeah, that's the down side...but anyways...he's definately a good guy...hopefully he's a keeper! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:2907 2004-05-03T22:03:50Z 2004-05-03T22:03:50Z DEDICATED TO MANY MANY PEOPLE:<br /><br />*what would you do if everytime you fell in love with someone, you had to say good-bye? what would you do if everytime you wanted someone, they would never want you back? what would you do if for every moment you were truly happy, there would be ten moments of sadness? what would you do if your best friend died tomarrow, and you never got to tell them how you felt? so, i just wanted to say, even if i never talk to you again, you are special to me, and you have made a difference in my life. i look up to youm respect you, and truly cherish you. let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. remember, everyone needs a friend, and someday you might feel like you have no friends at all, just remember this, and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.<br /><br /><br />*in times of trouble, in times of need, if you are feeling sad, you can count on me. i will give you a wink, until you smile, give you a hug, and stand by your side. i'll be there for you until the end, i'll always and forever, be your friend.<br /><br /><br />*real people don't deal with polemics, they deal with feeding themselves, and falling in love. they deal with surviving and trying to do the best they can.<br /><br /><br />*it's not how long you're here...but what you do while you're here.<br /><br /><br />JUST FOR LAUGHS:<br /><br />*hunny, that was a very loud beep. i don't even know if this is working...mark-mark...are you there? are you screening your calls?...it's mom! we just wanted to call and say we love you, and we'll miss you tomarrow! cindy and the kids are here---send their love! oh, i hope you like the hot plate...just don't leave it on when you leave dear. oh and mark, we're sorry to hear that maureen dumped you...i say c'est la vie...so let her be a lesbian. there are other fishies in the sea...love mom<br /> -RENT (THE MUSICAL) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:2679 2004-04-29T14:38:21Z 2004-04-29T14:38:21Z silence... When no one is there for you, and you think no one cares. When the whole world walks out on you, and you think you're alone...I'll be here. When all you need is a friend to listen to you whine. When all you need is someone to catch you tears...I'll be here. When your heart hurts so bad, you can't even breathe. When you just want to crawl up and die...I'll be here. When you start to cry, after you heard that sad sad song. When the tears just won't stop falling down...I'll be here. So you see, I'll be there until the end...this is a promise, that i know i can make if you ever need me. Just call, and i'll be there. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:2315 2004-04-26T17:52:45Z 2004-04-26T17:52:45Z mr busch classical crap ok bye...seriously...guess what is going to happen in my life in july...can ya guess??? ok...well i'm gonna tell you even if you don't care...i am going to see BRITNEY SPEARS LIVE in concert at the tampa anphitheatre. oh my freaking goodness...this is so exciting...i'm seriously gonna cry likr a big fat baby! ok wait...let me tell you how this dream come true began...well...this morning i was walking down the hallway on my way to 1st period, when all of a sudden "my hero" Big Michael Ridgewell stopped me frantically...and said "oh my gosh nicole, guess what?"...and i said to him "what?"...and he told me that his mom got him two tickets to the britney spears concert...and i said to him "cool"...and he told me that he had asked amdanda "panda" krotzer to attend the concert with him...and she said no (she hates britney spears...i guess she just hasn't come to her senses yet)...but anyways...then micheal said to me "do you wanna go with me?"...and i seriously started screaming and jumping up and down...it was like a mini orgasm...SERIOUSLY...and of course i said "yes"...because i definately could not turn down a ticket to the best concery of the year!!! ok well...my hero would like a massage...so i will continue this a little later...much love cuz...love nicole (the biggest britney fan) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:2054 2004-04-25T20:28:53Z 2004-04-26T17:23:32Z silence.... 1.WHATS YOUR FULL NAME...nicole renae wilson<br />2.AGE...16<br />3.SEX...female (last time i checked)<br />4.WHAT TIME IS IT...3:58pm<br />5.NICKNAMES...niki,bickle,punkin,cole,colie,chubs,bubba<br />6.HAIRCOLOR...brown with blonde highlights<br />7.EYECOLOR...blue<br />8.HEIGHT...5'2"<br />9.WEIGHT...112 pounds<br />10.CURRENT CRUSH...dave<br />11.DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS...two dogs (ginger and abby)<br />12.GOOD FRIENDS...amanda,dave,kelley,jeff,kristen,big mike (my hero)<br />13.FAVORITE COLOR...green<br />14.HOMETOWN...detroit michigan<br />15.CURRENT RESIDENCE...sarasota florida<br />16.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY...yes, cozumel mexico<br />17.HAVE YOU EVER LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT IT MAKES YOU CRY...yes, and it sucks<br />18.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT...yes<br />19.HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL...too many times<br />20.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN DRUNK...yes<br />21.HAVE YOU EVER SMOKED ANYTHING...yes,weed and cigarettes<br />22.ARE YOU A VIRGIN...nope<br />23.HAVE YOU EVER DONE ANYTHING WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX AS YOU...yes<br />24.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN HURT BY A FRIEND...yes<br />25.FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT...subway and chik-fil-a<br />26.FAVORITE SALAD TOPPING...ranch dressing and cheese<br />27.FAVORITE NICE RESTAURANT...carrabbas<br />28.FAVORITE KIND OF FOOD...chinese and italian<br />29.FAVORITE MOVIE...gothika<br />30.FAVORITE HOLIDAY...christmas and my birthday (i love getting presents)<br />31.FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK...friday and saturday<br />32.WORST DAY OF THE WEEK...monday<br />33.FAVORITE KIND OF FLOWER...tulips,daisies,roses<br />34.FAVORITE PHRASE/SAYING...unbelievable<br />35.WHEN'E YOUR BIRTHDAY...june 19th<br />36.FAVORITE DRINK...gatoraide,dr.pepper<br />37.FAVORITE SPORT...baseball<br />38.HOBBIES...dancing,singing,acting,shopping,hanging out with friends,hanging out at the palmetto winn-dixie<br />39.WHAT DO YOU REGRET MOST...hurting friends,falling in love<br />40.FAVORITE STORES...target,abercrombie,american eagle,aeropostile,rue 21, forever 21<br />41.DUMBEST THING THAT PEOPLE ASK YOU...why are you so short?<br />42.DO YOU WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE...yes<br />43.HOWS THE RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENTS...it sucks<br />44.FAVORITE TV SHOW...america's next top model,punk'd,law and order:svu,7th heaven<br />45.FAVORITE MUSICALS...chorus line,annie,chicago,rent,grease<br />46.WHAT PLAYS HAVE YOU BEEN IN...annie,grease,guys and dolls,titanic,slap happy<br />47.DO YOU PREFER SILVER OR GOLD...silver or white gold<br />48.HOW MANY KIDS WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE...one or two<br />49.FAVORITE GIRL NAMES...ryanne,madison,kalani,michelle<br />50.FAVORITE BOY NAMES...tyler,payton,landon,dylon,chandler<br />51.WHAT AGE WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE MARRIED...about 22<br />52.CURRENT SCHOOL...manatee school for the arts<br />53.CURRENT GRADE IN SCHOOL...11th<br />54.FAVORITE SUBJECT...psychology<br />55.LUCKY NUMBER...18 (thats when all the good stuff happens)<br />56.IF YOU COULD CHANGE ANYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE...my teeth and my age urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:1962 2004-04-25T19:11:29Z 2004-04-25T19:11:29Z gretchen wilson:redneck woman holy freaking masters class...ok...friday at school there were some semi-professional dancers that came to do a modern dance masters class and about 30 dancers from the school were chosen to take it...it's suppossed to be a privelage i guess...but yeah...i was one of the dancers...i have never ever in my entire life taken any sort of modern dance class...well...it was definately different...and kind of difficult...modern dancing is pretty much finding different ways to move and expand your body...it's very good if you'd like to get a good stretch...but anyways...today is sunday, and i am sitting at home doing absoulutely nothing...and why?...because i am so freaki ng extremely disgustingly sore...unbelievable...my back hurts, my legs hurt, just about everything hurts...it sucks...but moving on to the next subject...friday night i had to work...then when i got off my mom picked me up and took me to my grandma's house to stay the night so that i had a way to get to the 6th grade dance performance at school that i was helping with...so...when i got to grnadma's...i watched a little tv, then called dave, then called kelley, then went to sleep at about 1:30am...grandma woke me up at about 9:00am...and her and i went to the travel agency to get her tickets for michigan this summer, and then we went to the flea market to get a couple things for me or dance, then we went to long jogn silver's for lunch (gross)...and then she dropped me off at school! Once i got to school i helped mrs. cyndee's class do spacing on the stage, and then we went into the little theatre to practice the actual dances...at about 1:15 my good ol' buddy kelley showed up so i would have to go through all the pain of watching the 6th graders by my self...what a good friend...lol...anyways...it turned out that the dances weren't THAT bad...but it got over at about 1:45...kelley didn't have to be to work until 2:30, so her and i went and sat in her car and listened to my new cd that my friend burnt for me...it's awesome...i love it...then mrs. cyndee and ms. candi came over to her car and we all started dancing in the parking lot...we definately looked like a bunch of idiots...but that's ok...we had fin and that's all that matters...when kelley left at about 2:20 i went inside to wait for my mom...she showed up...we went home...and my dad was in a bad mood (as usual)...so...i listened to my cd once again and fell asleep...mom and dad went out...and i watched this movie called "man in the moon"...it was so good...seriously if you haven't seen it...you need to...but yeah...after that was over...i went to bed...ok well...i'm hungry so i'm gonna go eat, and probably dance a little, and then watch tv, and hmmm maybe go for a little swim...oh yeah...i get my phone back tomarrow...woo hoo...i can't wait...i haven't talked on my phone for a full week and i feel secluded from the world...ok bye...i'm a dork! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:1734 2004-04-23T14:49:05Z 2004-04-23T14:49:05Z i hate everything about you...three days grace Seriously…I’m about to cry like a big fat baby! I am so freaking pissed off…at just about everything in my life! Well…ok…I was dating this guy named Andrew, and I don’t even know why I was dating him because I didn’t even really like him, and a boyfriend is really the last thing that I need right now because of all the shit that I am going through right now with my parents, and I need to work harder in school, and work sucks, and I just don’t have any time at all for a boyfriend right now…so…I broke up with him!…yeah…we talked it out, and everything was fine, and he seemed really understanding about the whole thing and I apologized like 100 times…but then the other day, I went into the library to study for a history test with my “best friend”…and Andrew was in there talking to her…well guess what…I was sitting on one of the tables looking at a book with a bunch of purses in it with my friends Jonathan and Matt…and I freaking look over at Andrew and Erica and he is like pulling her between his legs and grabbing her butt and all this crap…what a good friend…NOT! And so during 4th period, I asked her if he was trying to make me mad by hanging all over her, and she said that she didn’t know, but then she told me that he asked her what the real reason was for breaking up with him…UN-FREAKING-REAL! Seriously if he didn’t believe me, then he should have came up to me and asked me…not my freaking best friend…and if she is truly my best friend then she wouldn’t have participated in helping him do that! Uhh…I knew it…I freaking knew it…ALL GUYS ARE JERKS! All of them…there is not one freaking guy that is totally everything a girl wants…NOT ONE! Ok well…I need to do some chemistry…I’ll write more later! Bye! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:1364 2004-04-15T14:20:06Z 2004-04-15T14:20:06Z she think's my tractors sexy Krystol strikes again!!! But this time…it’s not with andy, it’s not with josh, it’s not with bobby, and it’s not with jeff…guess who it is now.?.?…it’s the freaking guy that I like…go figure…she can’t find guys for herself so she has to freaking try to take that guys that I like…but yeah…anyways…that guy is dave! Seriously what do guys see in her…she’s fat, she’s not that pretty, and her personality sucks because she lies about everything, and overall…she’s just a slut…and it’s so freaking frustrating that everytime she finds out that I like someone…she has to go and fucking like them too!!! AHHHH! But I’ve already changed dave’s mind about her…I told him all the stuff she does, and he’s also heard some other stuff from other people…and listen to this shit…SHE’S ALREADY FREAKING LIED TO HIM…A LOT!!! Surprise…surprise! But anyways…guess who randomly called me last night before I got to work…AMANDA…holy freakin surprise…she said that she was worried about me because she saw me smoking a cigarette in jeff’s truck…I was seriously like shocked when she told me who it was…I was seriously like about to cry…I miss her sooo much…and for her to tell me that she’s worried about really made me feel better and brightened my shitty day…I know it sounds stupid…but I love her…and I thought that she hated me, and I’ve been trying so hard to act like I don’t care that she doesn’t like me or want to hang out with me…but deep down inside…I do care…I care a lot, she means a lot to me, and I still to this day cant believe what I did to her and how I betrayed her like I did…and if I could take it all back…I would! Alright well…I gotta go and work on some chemistry crap…fun fun! Much Love Buddies…Nicole urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:1230 2004-04-06T14:44:08Z 2004-04-06T14:44:08Z ok...seriously...this kid named bobby that i am in love with,and wanna spend the rest of my life with...yeah...remember him...ok...good...well...last night i went to his softball game to surprise him and also because i wanted despriately to see him...ok...well...that didnt go too well...once i finally freaking found the park...his frind calvin and i walked to the field where bobby was playing at...and bobby just looked at me and smiled...he didnt even say hi...yeah and then there were a few of his little redneck friends...they were all seriously talking about me like the whole entire freaking time...they were talking about my clothes,and how preppy i looked,and saying how they didnt know why bobby wanted a preppy looking girl like me! i seriously wanted to leave and cry...they dont even know me,and they were trashing me the entire fucking time!!! AHHH!!! I was gonna leave before the game was over but stupid me was hoping that bobby would come over to me,and give me like a giant hug,and a big fat kiss...that wouldve been great! But of course...after the game was over all of his gay little friends walked over to the dugout and started talking to him...so...i just left...didnt say bye...didnt say anything...just left...then once i got into the car...i started crying...i felt like the biggest idiot in the entire world...i told my friend kady that if bobby wants to see me...then he can come and see me...im gonna waste my time going to see him with all of his friends there,when hes not even gonna talk to me...its seriously pointless! So...heres something else...its a decision that i have made...and i know its a bad one because i know i should never change for a guy...but this is bobby...and i seriously need him in my life!!! ok...here goes nothin...im gonna turn into a redneck...i know its a scary thing but ya gotta do what ya gotta do...and i just wanna be able to fit in with all of my friends so that they wont trash me around him...ok well i gotta go...talk to you guys later...much love! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:807 2004-03-30T01:47:44Z 2004-03-30T01:47:44Z britney spears...toxic OK...seriously...we're moving...not just down the road...not to anywhere close...no...of course not...why in god's name would my parents want to make me happy...we're moving to freakin sarasota...and now i have to quit my job (which i seriously love)...get transfered to the freaking fruitville store...it's a really nice store, but i dont wanna leave my store...i love it, and i love the people...especially trudy, rick, mike, dave, and kelly...they make things so fun...but yeah...that's my life right now...but hey...i'll get over it...atleast i'm closer to bobby...the love of my freaking life...yeah...i'm definately gonna marry him one day, and we're gonna have two kids...one boy, and one girl...names:landon, and ryanne...and ryanne is gonna be a dancer like her mommy...and landon is gonna be a little red neck boy like his daddy...eww...i know you're sitting there reading this thinking that i'm stupid, and crazy, and that it's disgusting that i already have like my whole life planned out, and i'm not even 17...but i swear to you...this is all gonna happen...i can't have bubba jeff becuase he's all hung over amanda (stupid bitch)...and i can't have dave because he's too old (stupid law and stupid parents)...but i have loved bobby ever since i met him...he is seriously perfect, i couldn't ask for anything better! oh yeah...sorry to totally change the subject...but another good thing is that i have prom on saturday april 3rd, and i'm gonna get all pampered by getting my toes, nails, eyebrows, hair, and make up done...and i'm going out to dinner...i seriously look freaking awesome in my dress...i feel like a princess...oh yeah...and next year...even though we'll be living in sarasota...i get to stay at msa...becuase it'll be my senior year...and my parents don't wanna start me off in a new school for my last year of high school...i'm excited...i love that school...ok well...i gotta go, and fold my laundry before it get all wrinkled! MUCH LOVE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:741 2004-03-20T02:21:03Z 2004-03-20T02:21:03Z Ok...seriously...my ex-boyfriend bobby just called me,and we have been talking on the phone for over 2 hours...he is being really sweet to me,and we are just talking about everything there is to talk about! We broke up in april of 2002 becuase i wasn't 16 yet,so i wasnt allowed to date,and it was becoming difficult for me to sneak around,and he didnt want me to get into any more trouble that i was already in...but now that i'm 16,almost 17,and allowed to date,he said that we would have to get together,and hang out sometime!!! Ahhh...i'm so excited! Alright well...i need to get ready to go to a party with a bunch of my friends...and guess who else is gonna be there...BOBBY! Seriously...i need to either marry him or jeffy boy...they are both perfect,but totally different people...jeff is an extremely hott,extremely awesome,bi-sexual,nice dressing best friend...and bobby is an extremely hott,extremely awesome boyfriend,who is a red neck...i need them both,but would be the happiest person in the world if i just had one! Ok,well,wish me luck for tomarrow...i'm dancing at Lakewood Ranch High School for the special olympics...and i might be a little hung over...that's rough...see ya! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:niki1816:402 2004-03-18T15:24:45Z 2004-03-18T15:24:45Z Ok...yesterday...i seriously almost died! I had a cross between an anxiety attack,and an asthma attack. It was seriously the scariest thing that has ever happend to me. See,what happend is...i was already stressed out because my best friend amanda is pissed off at me,and she said that our friendship is over,and i miss her...we use to have so much fun together,and then there's this guy at work that i like,but he's still stuck on his ex-girlfriend who he dated for like 2 years,and the whole jeff thing...because seriously i am in love with him,but i know that i have no chance at all with him...he already told me that...but i'm stuck on him. Then my parents were all pissed off and yelling and cussing at me,and then my sister rachel was pissed at me...so...i was crying...very hard...so hard that i couldn't breathe. So,i got up off my bed,and went ot walk to the window becuase somebody was outside,and i collapsed and fell. My sister rachel came in,saw me,and ran back outside to get Mrs. Bertha...see came in,and called my uncle chris,who called my dad,who called my mom,and my aunt vicki. Once my uncle chris got to my house...he put me in the shower while i was in my clothes in the freezing cold water. My aunt vicki got there,and pumped my chest,while chris was on the phone with with 911...i didnt want to go in an ambulance...so the operator was just telling them what to do. Anyways...to make a super long story short...i'm not dead...in a way i wish i was...but then again...i'm happy i'm not! Ewww...get this...Mrs.Bertha told me what i looked like when everything was going on...she said...my eyes were rolled in the back of my head,my body was whit,my lips were blue/purple,i was gasping for air,and i was shaking...seriously that is freaking disgusting!